We Are in God’s Hands; therefore, We Are in Good Hands.

We are in God's hands; therefore, we are in good hands.

Since February 2020, I have been struggling with two pressure sores on my heels. At first, they were small, red marks, but they became nasty sores rapidly. Also, my feet were so swollen that I could not wear regular shoes. Nurses at Craig Hospital examined the sores and determined that they were not deep enough to infect the bones thankfully, but I ended up wearing specialized boots to stop adding extra pressure on my feet and heels. I have been wearing them for a few months now.

The most challenging part of treating the sores is discomfort. When I wear the boots, my feet do not get adequate support from the footstools of my wheelchair. The balance of my body posture therefore has been off severely in recent months. Imagine yourselves sitting on a chair in an awkward position all day long. Being on my wheelchair has been extremely uncomfortable and agitating and has caused lot of pain on my body. Yes, I was disappointed and discouraged that I had to suffer with pressure sores again. Yes, I struggled to hold him as I was drowning in spiritual depression . I also felt fear and frustration, wondering ‘how long must I suffer with these types of travail and pain? Will they ever stop? How long can I endure them?’ Soon, doubt and anxiety began taking control of my mind.

In the midst of this melt down, God reminded me that he has been holding me with his mighty hand when I was too weak to hold him and felt that I was fighting my battle alone. He reminded me that his righteous hand is my shelter from the storm and my refugee from the attacks of my enemies. He reminded me that I am in his nail pierced and victorious hands that overcame the world on the cross. I confessed that ‘I will let go of everything to hold your hand. I will let go of my pride, selfishness, ambition, and greed, and of the things that I have been holding instead of your hand. I cannot live and survive in this world without you. Once again, I lay down my life for you.’ God filled my heart with peace and confidence and alleviated the pain and discomfort.

When we undergo hardship and suffering and feel dread and uncertainty, there are times when God seems far away from us as if he were a stranger and when we cannot feel his presence and love. In these times, we can often lose our sight of and faith in God. However, regardless of our external and internal conditions, we must remember that God will uphold his people with his righteous right hand: “Do not fear for I am with you. Do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and comfort you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand” (Isa. 41:10). Jesus promises us that God will grasp us so tightly that nothing can ever pluck us out of his mighty hand (John 10:29). God will never forget us because he has engraved us on the palms of his hands (Isa. 49:15-16). As God is faithful to his words and promises, he will hold his people who put their faith in him. We are in God’s hands; therefore, we are in good hands.

I pray that God may hold you with his righteous and victorious hands and may fill your heart and spirit with his peace that surpasses all anxiety, fear, doubt, confusion, and frustration.

Sending God's peace unto you,
J.D. Kim